Meeting Him
I've rarely considered going back to the beginning of it all. I wasnt entirely ready to meet someone new. I wanted to feel safe. I knew that really all I wanted was someone to stand in my space and protect me from him. To be stronger and my lifeline when he returned. It had only been a few weeks admittedly since the last time I saw him. And he was losing himself more everytime. He walked around my small flat with a twisted manner of displease and contempt brewing within him. I had never seen someone conquer such energy from nowhere. I heard the voices talking to him as he muttered to himself and always prayed they would let him rest. The relentless chatter told him I was to blame and I was the one to judge and therefore punish. It had been three years of knowing him at this stage. I'd meet a man with a positive smile and a hard working ethic. Dedication to his job. Formal dress and well mannered. And when he approached me at my desk I was immediately taken aback by his brown e